It's been more than one year from the last entry. Things have change aaaaaaaaaa lot! But all I can say right now is GLORY to GOD in the highest.

I am writing this entry to remind myself of cinta mula2 ke Tuhan... It's only been 3 days since Thanksgiving Retreat 2008. Hati masi menggebu2.. di penuhi dengan kasih mula2 ke Tuhan.

This entry is a reminder to myself untuk janji2 Tuhan. Biarpun sekarang semuanya masih ga makes sense.. tapi i am sure one day... ONE DAY.. janji Tuhan bakal ke fulfill. Including the salvation of my whole family. Mama, papa, Ken, Amak.. Keluarga Ifung.. I'i evvy.. QQ owen, QQ jeffry.. Kuku siu Phing.. Kuku Hua. Everybody that I can think of. My best friends, Imelda, Aliki, Felicia, Pani, Helise.. Semua orang yg gw sayang.

Right now my heart is completely filled with the love of God. Somehow I just know that. It is a feeling of being content.. being grateful of every single minute that I have in this world. Honestly I am scared that I will lose this feeling someday. I have lost it once, and I am NOT going to lose it again. I spent 1 year longing for this feeling.. for this yearning to seek the Lord more. And finally.. Thanksgiving 2008, I got it! It took more than 1 year to wait.. hundreds of days.. thousands of hours to wait on the Lor.. All i can say that.. ITS WORTH IT!

Tuhan udah ngasi gw visi untuk hidup. Gw jadi bisa bilang kalau hidup gw sekarang itu ada artinya.. Gw ga lost lagi. Gw ga spent my mornings bertanya2 hari ini mesti ngapain.. hari ini gw mesti hidup jadi siapa. Hari ini gw mesti bangun dari tempat tidur dengan rasa terpaksa dan kesesakan yg amat sangat di hati. From now on.. gw bakal bangun dengan rasa syukur. Gw bangun dengan rasa berterima kasih yang sedalam2nya. Dan gw bangun dengan satu Goal! Untuk memuliakan nama Tuhan.

Setiap hari adalah hari yang baru.. dan setiap hari gw bakal lewatin buat memuliakan nama Tuhan. Dan setiap hari yang gw lewatin berarti satu hari lagi gw bakal liat janji Tuhan terpenuhi di hidup gw..

This is a reminder to myself.. Don't let this feeling go. Don't let this vision go unfulfilled. Dengan mata lurus ke depan.. Aku berjanji kepada Tuhan dan diriku sendiri.. untuk lebih lagi mendekatkan diri ke Tuhan. untuk membaca firmanNya setiap hari. untuk do all what it takes to be molded into something that God wants. His will be done and not mine... More of You and less of me is difinitely the theme for this year and years to come.

God's promise in my life:
You have the spirit of a mother.. a mother to young kids and even to older person. Do not be afraid to do something new. Depend on God always. Never leave His side. You have the gift of healing. You are beautiful and you do not need any man's approval for that. Do not let people's judgement get into you. Live by God's standards and not by other people's standards. Focus on God alone You are worth dying for, says Jesus. You will stand in front of the new generation. If you keep seeking God, you will see miracles like you have never even imagined before.

Thank you to God in the highest! Glory to You alone almighty God.